Unbearable Agony: My Struggle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden sensation erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid stabs, similar to electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically start with severe pain behind a single eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals suffer by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, severe agony around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, defined by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her teens, similar to several causes, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Still, the failure to organize life around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They linked the ailment to an evil entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical medical texts propose unusual treatments for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a separate disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery which supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a major journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased.

National guidance on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known people.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional attacks are handled with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Shannon Thompson
Shannon Thompson

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